{"id":185,"date":"2012-10-26T06:53:00","date_gmt":"2012-10-26T06:53:00","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.epicliving.com\/epic\/what-god-takes-away\/"},"modified":"2012-10-26T06:53:00","modified_gmt":"2012-10-26T06:53:00","slug":"what-god-takes-away","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.epicliving.com\/epic\/what-god-takes-away\/","title":{"rendered":"What God Takes Away"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Thought about my dad today and what God<\/a> takes away. Certainly that implies that something, or someone, was given. I see that now.<\/p>\n

As I was processing, I asked myself why I would still be writing about him. It has been almost 4 years now. For all I know, you might even be thinking why. Your first inclination might be to look at me as a grieving son or someone that has unresolved issues. All may be true, but I also thought<\/a> of you. At the risk of sounding redundant, much of what I write turns toward you. As it should be…by way of experience.<\/p>\n

Are you in a place, in the living years, where you can't resolve the unresolved? Still fighting, still fighting back what you'd prefer to forget?<\/p>\n

I guess I feel that my process of dealing with my dad's living and dying was for a purpose deeper than the loss of a human life. I know that I'm not alone. On more than one occasion I've had people write me to say they've been watching my journey. We live in a crowded world, so if Ed says he was watching, then I know it was for a good reason. I guess this post is for those that have never raised their hands. <\/p>\n

My gut tells me some of you may be fighting an un-winnable<\/a> war.<\/p>\n

In the vast majority of my life with my dad I was entangled and by the time I became an adult I was too arrogant and angry to resolve it. I was warned, but I pressed on. My mistake. I eventually did make it right, but man it seems like it would have been sweeter to get there earlier. Could be revisionist history or a longing to have a chance for a "do-over." I'm ok, though, I'm still moving forward. He is pleased, I know.<\/p>\n

Ok, what's the un-winnable war:<\/p>\n